To Do
Yes, I'm an ass. I use my journal as a portable task list.
Today: I have to go to the grocery store on the way home and pay too much for my prescription.
Tomorrow: Schedule the default hearing to get my divorce decree signed.
Soon: Find a place to get blood work done. Call the doctor's office to find out when my next appointment is because I completely forgot.
My life is enthralling.
The growing consensus at work is that Boss is headed for a fall. He's having a rough time of life, at the moment. When I think about it, from a human perspective, I feel bad for him. It's terrible to come to the realization that you suck and everybody hates you. That's the precursor to a tough lesson. I don't envy him for that.
Truly, I used to like the guy. I really did. I think that it's possible to be two people: you have a work persona and then the person that you are to the rest of the world. I blur the lines on that, because I tend to largely be the same person, on both sides. Perhaps my work persona is a bit more assertive. Or aggressive. Or maybe not. The point is that I think Boss is probably a decent enough guy when he's not marching around, trying to storm the castle. I base this on the fact that Ruxpin says he really likes him as a friend, but he hates him as a manager. I think also that when I met Boss, and we hit it off so well, he was still in a mode that allowed him to be his more agreeable self. As time passed, and the situation changed, he switched over to the current mode.
Currently, he sucks donkey ass. His words and deeds do not align. He schedules meetings with other departments and invites us to back up something he's told them, then he doesn't show. He never tells us what he's told them. We have no idea what the expectation is, and no idea what we are supposed to be talking about. That makes us appear as though...we don't know what we're talking about! Fucker.
We had another meeting in which I presented the database to a group of people as a potential tool to be adopted across several departments. This time, it was the Services Development team: a bunch of geeks, mostly. That was so much fun! I love geeks. I love talking to geeks. When they start asking questions about the difference between the versions of SharePoint, and how the underlying data tables can be cross-linked between systems...heaven! I am amazed at the geekspeak that comes out of my own mouth, in times like that. I ramble out some long, convoluted dialog about that stuff, full of acronyms and jargon, and then I'm almost surprised to see a satisfied nod of understanding from the guys across the table. It's cool.
They kept saying how impressive my database was. I love that. Every time it was expressed as, "Wow. You guys have done something really impressive with this," Boss would point out that the effort was 100% my own. "You guys"?! Yeah, fuck all that nonsense. I did it all by myself. They just fed me needs and I took care of them.
Mmmm. Geekness. It gives me such a warm feeling, right in my tummy. Or maybe that's the oatmeal I just had for breakfast.
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